Part 1: The Play of the Contented Wife
For three long, meticulously crafted years, I played the part of the contented, financially useless wife. My stage was a tastefully decorated but modest rented apartment in Boston, a space I had deliberately filled with charming but inexpensive furniture from flea markets and second-hand shops. My performance, honed to perfection, was a masterclass in self-effacement and cheerful incompetence when it came to anything involving money.
I, Clara Vance, was a “freelance interior designer,” a title that was a polite, dismissive way of saying “unemployed.” At least, that’s how my husband, David, and my ever-present, ever-critical mother-in-law, Margaret, saw it. To them, my “work” was a quaint little hobby, a way to keep my idle hands occupied with paint swatches and fabric samples while the real adult in the room handled the serious business of making a living.
David was a mid-level investment banker. It is crucial to emphasize the “mid-level” part, as he so often seemed to forget it himself. He spoke about his job as if he were the king of Wall Street, a titan of industry single-handedly propping up the global economy. “You just don’t understand the pressure I’m under, Clara,” he’d sigh dramatically over dinner, loosening a designer tie that cost more than my weekly grocery budget. “It’s a jungle out there. A man has to be a predator to survive.”
But the real nemesis, the true and constant antagonist in my three-year play, was Margaret. She visited our apartment every Sunday, and every visit was a new and inventive form of psychological torture, a masterclass in passive aggression.
“I just don’t know how my David does it,” she’d say, her voice a sharp, piercing critique, as she ran a white-gloved finger over a shelf I had dusted only that morning, inspecting it for failure. “My son has to carry this entire household on his strong, young shoulders. You really should find a real job, Clara, instead of just playing with your little ‘mood boards’ all day. A receptionist, perhaps? Something to contribute, to ease his burden.”