Chapter 1: The Cold Farewell
The antiseptic stench of bleach and rubbing alcohol hung heavy in the sterile air of Room 412. The steady, rhythmic beep-beep-beep of the heart monitor was the only sound anchoring me to reality. Every time I drew a breath, a jagged, visceral agony ripped through my lower abdomen, a brutal reminder of the emergency surgery I had just survived.
I turned my head, the scratchy hospital pillow irritating my feverish skin. A few feet away, bathed in the soft, humming glow of the neonatal incubators, lay two tiny, fragile lives. Emma and Ethan. They were swaddled tightly in pastel striped blankets, their chests rising and falling in rapid, shallow breaths. They were beautiful. They were perfect. And they were entirely, terrifyingly alone in this world with me.
I had endured the last twenty-four hours in a haze of sheer, unadulterated terror. The complications had arisen suddenly, turning a routine delivery into a frantic rush to the operating room. I had squeezed the eyes of the attending nurse, begging her to save my babies, begging her to call my husband.
But Caleb hadn’t been there.
While I was being sliced open to bring our children into the world, Caleb was sitting in the mahogany-paneled office of his mother’s corporate attorney, reviewing the quarterly portfolio yields of the Carter family estate.
